I have started that letter so many times. But ended up tearing it to shreds instead.
Yes, I know she is gone. But sometimes it does help to put it all down on paper … not for that person but as for yourself. Problem being, it still hurts too much. Plus mentally & emotionally I am just not ready.
2 months since my Mom passed, almost to the hour. But I still want to call her up to just talk to her, about anything. I want to be able to hear her voice, and know she is still here with us. To fool myself into still having her in our lives. But 2 months ago, I sat by her bed telling her it was ok to pass. Because I hated seeing her in the coma she was in. I hated watching her slowly pass … I hated loosing my Mom.
I still hope to wake up each morning & get a call from my Mom. To wake up out of the nightmare of all of this.
2 months … and the pain is still there. It hurts so much. Until I can find some way of letting that pain go, I don’t think I will ever be able to fully accept my Mom’s passing.
I hurt over my Mom’s passing … and I will NEVER forgive those who hurt our family for so long. Yet, tried to be “family” for the last few months. I will never forgive or forget …
No comments:
Post a Comment