My poor husband

Yesterday my husband spent so long in the ER. They ran test, after test, on him. But they would not release him because his blood pressure was severely low. Plus he has pneumonia, and they could not give him any form of meds unless he was watched. That is when they secured a bed for him, and transferred him to the upper floors.
They did breathing treatments all night & morning with him. I know he didn’t get much sleep, so I won’t take our kids or granddaughter up to see him. I want him to rest, and he cannot do that with us in there. Yes, that seems harsh but I want him to recover & come home soon.

My husband looked at me yesterday and said "How do you feel when the shoes on the other foot?” I just smiled at him. Because until last night he didn’t grasp that idea. Then he wasn’t enjoying have made that point. They have been running test after test on him, blood, CAT, Ultrasounds, urine, sputum … all those tests that make you feel horrid when they appear. Even worse when they let you know those didn’t give any results, which means MORE tests.

I never wanted my husband to have to go though this. He’s always so healthy, and this has to be so hard for him. I know it is, because he keeps asking me how I am doing. Hello, I am not the one in the hospital!!! It’s hard, extremely, because you are stuck with dr’s deciding what to do with you. “no this test was ok, so we are gonna run these now instead” Leaving you with the thought “why didn’t you just do it the 1st time?” Dreading seeing the nurse, tech, or dr. Wanting to just pack up & leave … letting them find someone else to test or diagnose.

The question of the day ....

original post date: 6/24/2010

I would love to have a week where I can do things & not crash. Before it wasn't too bad, I could do a bit but would crash for a say or two. But it has gradually gotten worse over the years.
Last month I was hospitalized because I was anemic and my heart rate was 41, with a dangerously low blood pressure. I scared everyone who loves me, and today they are still extremely worried.
5 or 6 years ago, this wouldn't have happened. Yes I was younger, but still I was able to do pretty much anything I wanted. This little stunt made sure I didn't go to the family reunion. And it pretty much has be locked in one area, travel is out of the question for me right now, at least with me driving.

I keep hearing from my docs "once this is done, it will you will be ok." Only problem is I have heard this over & over for the last few years. I have agreed to do what they tell me needs done, only to have another medical issue occur. Part of me wonders if I didn't do what they suggested if I would be going through all of this ... and that is disturbing.

Now I have to decide if I get a hysterectomy done, as well have the spine in my neck fused together. Yea that's just the easiest thing to decide isn't it? Or it would be unless you were dealing with me & all the blasted issues I have going on in my body. Heck only one issue laid me out for 2 days ... all I did was help tear out a small part of carpet from my own freaking room. 2 days later, I am still feeling the pain, and exhaustion. Let's not even discuss the problems my back says it is having ... it's very unhappy with me right now & letting me know about it.

The question is do I follow what my doc suggest or to I take a chance & end up screwed from not trying?